I have to admit, updating my blog more regularly isn’t actually one of my New Year’s resolutions. Most years I don’t even make New Year’s resolutions, because it’s just not something I’m interested in. If I want to do something to make my life better, I’m not going to wait for some arbitrary date to start it. (And let’s be real: I can break a resolution in July just as well as I can break one in January!) This year I actually made one resolution, to work out at least five times a week, and so far I’ve stuck to it. However, I recently got a notice reminding me that my domain is set to automatically renew, and I figured I should probably use this thing once in awhile.
So what have I been up to since the last time I updated? A lot, actually. I’m a fairly secretive person, even on my own blog, so I’m not going to go into too much detail. I will say that I have taken some major steps toward a new career and am absolutely loving it. It’s been a long time since I felt like a contributing member of society, or, as I refer to it, a “real person.” Yes, I know that being ill and out of the public eye didn’t make me any less real, but it sure felt like it sometimes.
I have to admit, the past few months have been really hard for me, even with all of the good things. I’m starting to have that end of twenties crisis, compounded by the fact that due to my health issues, I’m pretty far behind most of the healthy people I know when it comes to careers, relationships, and children. Finding out that yet another person I grew up with is getting married or having kids feels like a kick to the chest. Yes, things seem to finally be looking up as far as career prospects go, but that still puts me pretty far behind where I’d like to be at this point in my life. I’m starting to wonder if marriage and kids will ever happen at all, and it’s emotionally crushing.
So that’s where I’m at right now. I’m not making any more official resolutions, but I will try to update this thing more regularly. Maybe once a month, maybe more often, most likely less often. We’ll see where 2018 takes me.